so things aren't exactly going to hot for me lately, but i am trying to keep my spirits up.

had a nightmare last night that love toyed with me again; he took me back, fucked me, and then threw me away and laughed. and i was crying. and i woke up, with tears, and today would have been our one year two month anniversary. sigh, unfortunate how things turn out like that, eh?

well fuck it. i get next to daily advice from james at work, and he seems to really have a grasp on the situation, and he reassures me a lot. and he tries to invite me to hangout with his friends. i almost went to karaoke night at the shanghai with them but i was like nah not tonight, not feeling up to it. turns out jeremy gara of the arcade fire was going to be hangin out with them. goddamnit.

i try not to think about the whole situation. so, i'm redoing my room. it's going to look fabulous, and i can't wait. i will now have a closet, and i've already imagined where i am going to put everything. my shoes, my handbags, my dresses, eek i just can't wait.

and tonight is starbucks with the ladies. because nothing makes me happier and lets me forget all my troubles than drinking a $5 coffee and absorbing the consumer bullshit and contributing to everything that is wrong with my neighbourhood. ah, can't get enough of it. mmm.